Where Can I fine The Right Man to Un-Gay me?

Here is something so beautiful, it best describes the prince,I am searching for.... Don't fall in love with love... Fall in love with someone who is willing to: love you, wait for you, understand you even when something doesn't make sense or it seems crazy, help you, guide you, support you, be your hope, be your everything. Fall in love with someone who won't betray you, who will be loyal, will dream of you, who will only think of you, of your face, in how delicate you are, in your spirit, and not just in your body. Fall in love with someone who will wait for you 'til the end, someone who will be what you have not chosen ,something you never expected. Fall in love with someone who will suffer with you, who will laugh with you, someone who will dry your tears, who will make you feel protected, someone who will find happiness in your happiness, and will give you strength when you have failed. Fall in love with someone who will come back to you after a fight and will still be there for you, someone who will be a good partner and a best friend, who will respect your fantasies, your hopes and your dreams. Fall in love with someone who will love you, don't fall in love with love, fall in love with someone who is in love with you. Don't let someone be your priority while allowing yourself to be their option!

Special Dedication To My Late Mom

Ku merasakan kasihmu. Dan segalanya, menyentuh hatiku. Kini, masa menentukan keikhlasan cintamu. Yang tiada pengakhiran rindu. Dikau rela berkorban. Melalui gelora berliku. Pengorbananmu, tiada gantinya. Kasih sayangmu kini masaih bergema. Kau la segalanya. Cahaya harapan untuk bersama. Ketulusan hatimu, bagai sinar pengorbananmu. Sayang, begitulah takdirnya. Ku nanti panggilan suaramu. Oh dengar deruan yang bersyahdu. Walau tanpa dirimu di mahligai sepi. Hanya impian indah, melihatku mengertimu. Daku menghargai dirimu, bagai sinar pengorbananmu.

Oct 25, 2007, 9:08 am

Ku mengerti perpisahan ini
Bukan kerana kau membenci
Tapi kasih yang pernah kuberi
Tiada lagi bersama

Seringkala aku terlihatkan mu
Impian nan indah
Bersulam bahagia

Ku harungi hari demi hari
Bersama wajah tak mungkin akan kembali
Tapi hati masih tak terima
Ditinggalkan sengsara

(Korus)
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Tercari-cari bayanganmu
Tak sanggup aku kehilangan
Kehilanganmu

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Syptom of The weak faith

1. Falling into sin and commiting bad deed.

There are some sinners who commit a sin and persist in it and some who commit many kind of sins. When a person commits many sins, sin becomes a habit which he gets used to, and then he no longer feel that it is ignominious and shameful. He gradually reaches a stage where he commits the sin openly, and thus becomes one of those reffered to in the hadith:

"All of my people - nation-will be fine except for those who commit sin openly, an example of which is a man who does something wrong at night and when morning comes and Allah has concealed his sin, he says ""O" so-and-so, I did such and such yesterday. His Lord had covered his sin all night, but he has uncovered what Allah had concealed. ( Hadith Bukhari)

2.Feeling that one's heart is hard and rough

A man may feel that his heart has turned to a stone , which nothing can penetrate or reach.

Allah says: Then, after that, your hearts have hardened and became as stone or even harder.... (Quran 2:74)

The person whose heart is hard will not be moved by reminders of death or by seeing deceased persons or funerals. He may even carry a dead person to his grave and throw earth into the grave, but when he walks between the graves it is as if he is merely walking between rocks

Specially dedicated to my best friend syerry

This is my best friend Syerry. Lately im feeling kinda sad after she tender her resignation. Its not because i have to take over her client but i guess I'm gonna miss her a lot. In fact everyone is gonna miss her.

I'm gonna miss her jokes and "squeaking voice". Oh yeah..especially when we have to travel outstation. Really gonna miss those moment.

The moment with Syerry that i will never,never forget for the rest of my life is during New Year's Eve.(She will know what I'm talking about). I know she and Mark really felt sorry about that night.

Among all my girlfriends i love her the most. Even though we will still see keep in touch and have lunch together, this office will never be the same without her...thanks to my EVP.

Must Be one of my mood swing again

It must be one of my mood swing again. Its either that or stress at work. Cant tell anymore. Lately i have been a real pain in the ass especially to my sweetheart Mike. My bestfriend Syerry resigned and my EVP is not exactly an easy person to work with.And my job demands a lot of my time. Not to mention being a single mom with 2 kids..i have to be a superwoman most of the time.

Imagine life as a game in which you are juggling some 5 balls in the air. You name them- WORK, FAMILY,HEALTH,FRIEND S,AND SPIRIT. And you are keeping all these in the air. You will soon understand that work is a rubber ball. If you drop it, it will bounce back.

But the other 4 balls- FAMILY,FRIENDS,HEALT H & SPIRIT are made of glass. If u drop these, they will be irrevocably scuffed or damaged or even shattered. And they will never be the same.

But at this current moment, i cant even afford to let go the first ball- WORK..not when I'm being a single mom alone trying to bring up my two angels, Ridhwan and Sarah. They mean a world to me. I know this is a test from the Almighty which i have to go in life.

As for my sweetheart, Mike I hope you will bare with me and my stupid mood at this moment. I never meant to be such a pain in the ass.I know my mood swing is really crazy at times. Trust me, I love you with all my heart.

Allah is the One who understands the fear i feel inside and to Him alone i seek guidance and help. I love you oh Allah and thank you for always being there for me.Help me make it thru this life and protect me always form being astray.