Saturday, June 18, 2011

Specially dedicated to domestic violence victims


I was requested to write this entry by this particular person. She is one of my very special friend. Woke up at 3.45am this morning when i received a text message from her. This is what she wrote me." Salam Ellie, don't know to whom should I talk to....I had a fight with my hubby. He hit me badly on my face. After more than 10 times he hit me, I fought back. I managed to punch his face, his throat and kicked his balls. I bit his arm. Please don't call me now. I just wanna let someone know, so if anything worst happen, someone knows about it. I am in my toilet now looking at my battered face."...
We exchanged text messages after that just to make sure she was alright. She stopped sending me text message when she heard he husband came back again. Most women are too afraid to report the domestic violence. Some are afraid to go through the divorce, some stays simply because of their children.
Many asked" Why did it happen?" "What did 'I" do to cause it? Was there any domestic violence prevention that could have been done? "why did he do this ?" Many women asked these same questions. Sometimes there are absolutely NO "logical" reasons why things happen. Sometimes there are logical reasons. But none of them make us physically, emotionally, or mentally feel any better after they happened.
Was this the only time? Well, I would love to tell you it was. But that wouldn't be the truth. And the truth is why we are all here, right? To find the truth and seek our own solutions to get out.Were there red flags? In reflection, "Heck, yes!" To me any man who hits women or even children are simply COWARD. Why chose to hit on the weaker gender..why not choose their own gender?

Just a flashback of what my ex boyfriend used to do to me whenever i wasn't flying during my MAS days:

I can hear it now… the screaming…. the crying… begging him to stop hitting me … He punches me in my face.. kicks me down to the ground.. Im begging for mercy… He leans down “
Sssh……Ill kill you” He dares me to scream… He grabs me by my hair… drags me on the floor. Grabs the cigarette, took a few of out the packet , lit them… ((Please Allah, take me now)) and then… The thunder rolls, I snap back to reality and wipe the tears from my eyes…
At one time I was admitted 18 days at Taipei Taiwan General Hospital for internal bleeding due to the kick and punches I received. So to this close friend of mine, stay strong, and i truly understand the feeling of being hit, kick and punch by a man.

This poem was written for a lady who lost her life at the hand of her boyfriend. I would like to dedicate to all the women who suffer domestic violence.

As I sit here and cry

With bruised and battered eyes

I wonder what did I do

to make you hit me this time

I cooked your food just the way

you like

And I cleaned the house, there’s not

a speck of dust in sight

May it was my makeup or my hair

Or the choice of clothes I chose to wear

I don’t know maybe its just me

It seems nothing I do makes you happy

I cut off my friends and family to prove my love

But it does not seem to be enough

I continue to believe that things will change

and in your promises to never hit me again

But deep down I know you will never change

So I sit here and continue to cry

As I try to find a way to hide

my bruised and battered eyes









Friday, June 3, 2011

I can never thank Allah enough...I am the luckiest woman on the earth because I have the love of the most amazing man....


I am the luckiest woman on the earth because I have the love of the most amazing man. He is so kind , caring, giving, and compassionate. He is always there for me to talk through my rough spots, he is always there to encourage me and make me feel like I matter. He is the most patient man I have EVER known. He makes me laugh and smile every day. I count the seconds, the minute , the hours till I can call him. I love to hear him say " Hey baby" , hear the excitement in his voice , that tells me he's just as happy to hear me. I love that we can talk about ANYTHING, we share our hopes and dreams. With him I feel safe TO dream and hope. I have NEVER loved another as I love him. He is my "other" half, the final piece that when we come together we are WHOLE. We balance each other. What I cannot find within myself he shows me, what he cannot realize on his own I am able open his eyes to. What we share is NOT the average love, it's a closeness a bond very few have. I will NEVER take him or our love for granted. So I am the luckiest woman on this earth because I have the love of this amazingly beautiful sexy man.

Baby , know the first day of my life began the day I became yours. I LOVE YOU

Friday, May 27, 2011

The Voice Within

Young girl don't cry
I'll be right here when your world starts to fall
Young girl it's alright
Your tears will dry, you'll soon be free to fly
When you're safe inside your room you tend to dream
Of a place where nothing's harder than it seems
No one ever wants or bothers to explain
Of the heartache life can bring and what it means
Chorus:
When there's no one else, look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength that will guide your way
You'll learn to begin to trust the voice within
Young girl don't hide
You'll never change if you just run away
Young girl just hold tight
Soon you're gonna see your brighter day
Now in a world where innocence is quickly claimed
It's so hard to stand your ground when you're so afraid
No one reaches out a hand for you to hold
When you're lost outside look inside to your soul

Chorus
When there's no one else, look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength that will guide your way
You'll learn to begin to trust the voice within
Life is a journey
It can take you anywhere you choose to go
As long as you're learning
You'll find all you'll ever need to know
(be strong)
You'll break it
(hold on)
You'll make it
(be strong, hold on)
Just don't forsake it because
No one can tell you what you can't do
No one can stop you, you know that
I'm talking to you
Young girl don't cry
I'll be right here when your world starts to fall...

Thursday, May 12, 2011

Fu8king Perfect

Once upon a time I was all in this video...This song brings me to tears every time i hear it because so many of us need to hear this. Parents, Husbands, wives, children, friends please let your loved ones know they are loved.....

DREAMS....


We all have dreams...We all want to believe deep down in our souls that we have special gift,that we can make a difference, that we can touch others in a special way, and that we can make the world a better place.At one time in our lives, we all had a vision for the quality of life that we desire and deserve. Yet, for many of us, those dreams have become so shrouded in the frustrations and routines of daily life that we no longer even make an effort to accomplish them.For far too many, the dream has dissipated - and with it, so has the will to shape our destinies. Many have lost the sense of certainty that creates the winner edge. My life's quest has been restore the dream and make it real, to get each of us to remember and use the unlimited power that lies sleeping within us all.

The Past Is Gone Forever....


The past is just memories. I hear people say they would like to change so many things in their past.Guess what folks,there is absolutely NO way you can change your past.It's over,gone and never to come back again.Let it go. Do not look back. Keep going forward.Live your live in here and now. Forget it. You cannot on no way no how ever change ur past. I am sorry to tell you that but it's trus. There are no machines to take you back, no magics spell will correct your past mistakes and no genie is going to appear and gran you the wish of changing your past.

By brooding over the past and it tragedies, one exhibits a form of insanity- a kind of sickness taht destroys resolve to live for the present moment. Those who have a firm purpose have filed away and forgotten occurrences of the past, which will never again see light, since they occupy such a dark place in the recesses of the mind. Episodes of the past are finished with; sadness cannot retrieve them, melancholy cannot make things right, and depression will neverbring the past back to life. This is because the past is non - existent.

Do not live in the nightmares of former times or under the shade of what you have missed. Save yourself from the ghostly apparition of the past.Do you think that you can return teh sun to its place of rising, the baby to its mother's womb, milk to the udder, or tears to the eye? By contantly dwelling on the past and its happenings, you place yourself in a very frightful and tragic state of mind.

Reading too much into the past is a waste of the present.When Allah mentioned the affairs of the present.When Allah mentioned the affairs of the previous nations, He the Exalted, said:

"That was a nation who has passed away" - (Qur'an 2 : 134)

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

TRUE FRIENDSHIP


Two inseparable friends, Sam and Jason, met with an accident on their way to Boston City. The following morning, Jason woke up blind and Sam was still unconscious. Dr. Berkeley was standing at his bedside looking at his health chart and medications with a thoughtful expression on his face. When he saw Sam awake, he beamed at him and asked." How are you feeling today Sam?" Sam tried to put up a brave face and smiled back saying, "absolutely wonderful Doctor. I am very grateful for all that you have done for me. "Dr Berkeley was moved at Sam's deed. All that he could say was, "You are a very brave man Sam and God will make it up to you in one way or another". While he was moving on to the next patient, Sam called back at him almost pleading, "promise me you won't tell Jason anything".
"You know I won't do that. Trust me." and walked away.
"Thank you " whispered Sam. He smiled and looked up in prayer " I hope I live up to your ideas...please give me the strength to be able to go through this..Amen"

Months later when Jason had recuperated considerably, he stopped hanging around with Sam. He felt discouraged and embarrassed to spend time with a disabled person like Sam.

Sam was lonely and disheartened ,since he didn't have any body else other than Jason to count on. Things went from bad to worse. And one day Sam died in despair. When Jason was called on his burial, he found a letter waiting for him. Dr Berkeley gave it to him with an expressionless face and said" This is for you Jason. Sam had asked me to give it to you when he was gone".

In the letter he had said: " Dear Jason, I have kept my promise in the end to lend you my eyes if anything had happened to them. Now there is nothing more that I can ask from God, than the fact ,that will see the world through my eyes. You will always be my best friend........Sam".

When he had finished reading Dr. Berkeley said " I had promised Sam to keep his sacrifice he made a secret from you. But now I wish I didn't stick it Because I don't think It was worthy it" .
All that was left for Jason while he stood there was tears of regret and memories of Sam for the rest of his life .

Lesson of the story: No matter what If we make a friend, we should stick by him till the end. Life is meaningless without a friend.

Sunday, May 1, 2011

Someone To Love Me

Inside of this girl who pretends to be me.
Beneath of this heart is a girl no one sees.
lonely and frightened she lives in my mind.
longing for love for the love she can't find.
Nobody knows me, no one can see.
Nobody knows me, knows what i feel.
All that i wanted, all that i need
Is some one to love me, to love me, to love me for meeeeeee.

Under this mask is a place where she hides
Under this smile, this soft dreamy eyes
Somewhere beneath what the world wants to see,
Inside of this girl who pretends to be me.
Beneath of this heart is a girl no one sees.
lonely and frightened she lives in my mind.
longing for love for the love she can't find.
Nobody knows me, no one can see.
Nobody knows me, knows what i feel.
All that i wanted, all that i need
Is some one to love me, to love me, to love me for meeeeeee.


Saturday, April 30, 2011

KNow the Real Me...

When I first heard this song...it's like Mariah was singing about me..All my life people that know me thought they knew me inside and outside but the fact is, i have always been misjudged based on what they on the surface.

You look at me and see the girl
Who lives inside the golden world
But don't believe
That's all there is to see
You'll never know the real me

She smiles through a thousand tears
And harbors adolescent fears
She dreams of all
That she can never be
She wades in insecurity
And hides herself inside of me

Don't say she takes it all for granted
I'm well aware of all I have
Don't think that I am disenchanted
Please understand

It seems as though I've always been
Somebody outside looking in
Well here I am for all of them to bleed
But they can't take my heart from me
And they can't bring me to my knees
They'll never know the real me



I LOVE YOU




Does absence make the heart grow fonder? Maybe so...!!I am writing this I LOVE YOU LETTER while Nz is away from me for a week. In it I share with my sweetheart the reason I love him.

My Beloved Nz,
I love you. Just writing that puts a smile on my face. YOu put a smile on my face.

I love you because of your sweetness, your kindness, your tenderness and your thoughtfulness.

I love you because you are MY DEAR FRIEND and LOVING COMPANION. You smile at my silly jokes, my "muka merajuk" and my youthful spirit.

I love you because I have a longing to be close to you and you long to be close to me. I love snuggling and cuddling with you on the swing at my porch(which we call "OUR SPECIAL PLACE") every night till early in the morning. I love to be near you. I love holding your hand on a walk during the day and holding your hands across the table at "Kayu" restaurant at night.
I love you because you listen to me as I share the small triumphs or struggles of the day.

I love you because in moments of friction between us, you hear me out. Even when you don't agree with me, you listen with a longing to understand me.I love you because you respect me. You enjoy my attentiveness and appreciate my efforts to romance you. You appreciate my generosity to yourself and my generosity towards others.

I love you, sayunk!

Ellie


With Your Love I ALREADY AM RICH beyond my dreams


One day Ellie was wandering in the forest thinking and missing her beloved Nz. Satan was looking down upon the earth looking for a soul to torment. He saw Ellie wandering alone in the forest and he flew down to meet her.

Satan said: "Why Ellie, I have been looking for you".

A startled Ellie asked: "What do you want?"

Satan said: "What do I want?Ellie, please, I have a wonderful offer for YOU!"

Ellie replied : "Thanks. But I am not interested".

Satan said: "Why Ellie, you haven't what i have to offer. I could make you very wealthy ".

Ellie said: "You don't say".

Satan said: "Yes, I will make you quite wealthy. I will make you rich beyond your dreams".

Ellie replied: "Excuse me if I sound suspicious, but there wouldn't happen to be a catch?".

Satan said: "Ellie, I am offering you so much!! All you have to do is give up on Nz's love for you and I will make you rich beyond your dreams".

Ellie smiled.

Satan saw the smile and said : See Ellie, I knew you will like my offer".

Ellie's smile broaden and she replied: You don't understand. Satan, I am not interested in your offer. With Nz's love, I ALREADY AM rich beyond my dreams".

Letter to My Soul Mate From Minah Ayat Power


My Dearest Sweetheart

Time is inconsequential as the words are always present in my soul, so the transposition from heart to paper is swift. The emotions come from the deepest core of my being...the place where no one but you can walk. There is a gazebo, replete with trellised adornments upon which Topaz roses grow. A weeping-willow, ancient and wise with silent offerings of love and life, whispers softly its secrets to you as the wafting breeze strokes the strings of its mellow harp.

I was lost upon a sea of changes, winds and waves, searching...hoping in silent and profound prayer that somehow my redemption would appear. You came into my life and I realized that it was not something new that I had hoped for, but something as old as time itself, created at the beginning of all things...the absent part of my soul...the essence of my soul...You.

The day the kind fates smiled upon me and their soft, caressing winds blew my battered self upon the warm shores of your heart, I was born anew...whole once again. A someone, not just a broken shard. You have restored me. My heart, like the harp can sing again...can taste the flavors of emotion and touch intimately the tenderness within.

You, My Love...are the life within me. The breath of Spring and rejuvenation. the strength that carries me through the wilderness on my way home to you.

I Love You more deeply than I can express.

Your loving wife,

Ellie

Wednesday, April 27, 2011

My Best Companion During My Hospital Stay


My special thanks to you sweetheart for taking care of me during my stay at the hospital the last 3 days..sending me to the 1st floor for my physio in the morning and in the evening..finishing my M&M while waiting for me to finish my physio and for sneaking me out of the hospital for a couple of hours just to see Wan and Sarah...UNFORTUNATELY gonna miss u tomorrow(wish u don't have to go for your trip), with u sanitizing ur hand at every patient's door while wheeling me around on the wheel chair...LOL. All these while i had to go for my hospital trip alone but now trip to the hospital will not be as bad as before..
I remember the first day to the hospital, when u told me "things are gonna be alright" while holding my hand tight, u had tears in your eyes ( I know you were sad because i am sick). But you kept giving me the assurance that no matter what happen you are always gonna be by my side. Never in my previous relationship had any of them treated me the way u do. With them it's always about them and never about me. But with you, you always made me feel important.

I wish tomorrow you don't have to go for your trip as the doctor is gonna give me bad bad injection through my spine(sob sob sob) but I know you have work to do at the next continent but I am so looking forward to sneak out of the hospital tomorrow for a couple of hours just to send you to the airport. Ngeee!!!.

I am so gonna miss you tomorrow. Each time I miss you, a star falls down from the sky. So, if you looked up at the sky and found it dark with no stars, it is all your fault. You made me miss you too much!

God is my Strength and My Refuge.

Religion may be the cause of war.RELIGION, not god!Man is the cause of war.If man would take the time to listen to each other rather then dive head first into the ice cold water, if they would just analyze the situation many men, women and children would still be here today.So maybe Religion is the cause of war, but only the misudersatnding of religon cause war.NOT GOD!!! Smile. Just smile. Smile at those who don’t have Him in their hearts. Go ahead. Smile. And while you are at it, try to tell them about Him. And keep on smiling when they push you away and tell you that He isn’t real and that there is no proof that He exists. And then when you just can’t smile any wider, laugh. Laugh till it hurts then finally ask them: “Do you have any proof that He doesn’t?” And you dont have to say another word even if they do. Cause you won. YOU WON. Cause having proof that God is real totally ruins the point in believing with your heart, soul, and mind. You dont need some fancy factual book to say Hes there, or some smarty scientist to say it. You got Him. How much more proof do you need?

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

NZ, When You Said You Love Me...


I've had the experience of being in relationships before however, this is the first time I've been truly happy. For the first time in my relationship, I am allowed to be myself and not someone whom the guy wants me to be and with him I can do whatever that makes me happy. When someone broke my heart, i decided to pierce my lips and he didn't say NO but accompany me instead and when I told him, i wanted to go for a vacation with my good friends, he gave me his full support and told me "You deserved this vacation baby" instead of like others.."No"..or "why" or "Go with me"... So this poem is about this special man in my life NZ. He's my inspiration for writing this poem. He's the thought that makes me smile and he's the rhythm that makes my heart beat. I wanted to share a piece of my heart on how beautiful the feeling is of "when love begins" and being able to share that love with that right person...
I always knew that love would come find me someday
but never did I know that it would be you who was headed my way
you caught me off guard and took me by surprise
but you simply captivated me, the same way you do when I look into your eyes
It's true that every good and perfect gift is from above
you were presented to me as a beautifully packaged gift full of humor, talent, intelligence, beauty and love
"it isn't finding the perfect person but learning to see an imperfect person perfectly"
we all have our flaws but when I view you through my eyes, perfection is all I see
From when you laugh to when you're upset, I still love the little things you do
especially hearing you laugh and seeing your nose wrinkle the same way mine does too
coming into this relationship has been hard at times but we've made it through
I know as long as we're on this journey together, there's nothing that we can't do.
Sometimes I wonder if what we have is too good to be true
too scared to get my heart broken and scared of the thought of losing you
but in the end, I trust in the author and perfecter of what I believe
because what we ask for in Him, we in return shall receive
"Where your treasure is, your heart will be also" is how the saying goes
I may not know what tomorrow may bring, for God is the only one who knows
the one thing I do know is that you are my one and only
a treasure in my heart that I want to devote my whole life to completely
I know I don't need to prove my feelings to know they're true because what I've known in my past, doesn't come close to the experience I've shared with you I've had the experience of being in relationships before
however, this is the first time I've been truly happy... I couldn't ask for anything more it's an honor to know that I am yours, as you are mine and I trust God that He'll bring us together in His beautiful time
For now, I'll be waiting patiently for that day when we'll be together
that precious moment in time when I'll say, "it's you that I want to be with forever"
God made everything beautiful, precious and new
just as beautiful and precious as the day will be, when I look into your eyes and say, "I Love You"









Thursday, April 14, 2011

Learn To Love


It may be easy to look around our world today and see the appearance of chaos, difficulty and strife. Yet, when we come from an open heart, we can also see our opportunity to love all things into balance, joy, harmony and peace. This planet does not need more visions of desperation, fear, doubt and hate - it requires an abundance of love, especially unconditional love, to heal and restore the beauty contained in every moment. This becomes the easier path once we take the first step and begin to share our love.

When we bring unconditional love back into our personal, professional, community and family lives, we begin the journey of restoring wholeness and happiness to our planetary adventure. Of course it takes determined effort on our part as the old ways of being are quick to return in our mind. However, this effort to love is rewarded with a new perspective on everything and all life benefits as a result.

Many people have traveled this world with different dreams, purposes and aspirations. Many are masters, teachers, inventors and followers. They were all sent by the creator of the universe to achieve one just course; “global peace and unification.” But this course cannot be achieved without unconditional love, which possesses the magical powers of the Divine for transformation. When the human race embraces love unconditional, then the lost will be found, the naked will be clothed, the hungry will be fed, the bombs will be destroyed and there will be peace and unity which will make us all to speak one language, “LOVE”. Let love abide .

- Philip D. Brown, Port Harcourt, Rivers State, Nigeria


Wednesday, April 13, 2011

LOVE...


“Love isn't blind or deaf or dumb - in fact it sees far more than it will ever tell. It is going beyond yourself and stretching who you are for someone else. Being in love entails seeing someone as you wish they were: to love them is to see who they really are and still care for them. Love isn't bitter, but you can't have love without pain: sacrifice is the hallmark of love, the coin of love.
Being in love usually is used in a romantic sense when you meet your significant other transforming a normal relationship into a deeper one without further interest in others.
Love means that you trust the person, would do anything for the person, and know that person is with you through thick and thin....”
"There are no shortcuts through the way of life", and so, sometimes in spite of strong unwillingness, we have to face all the trials. Trials which often leave us heart-broken and paralyzed. We are lost and shattered. But its really up to us whether we will let others become the masters of our lives and dictate upon us.

Consistent Love And Kindness


One day a young man was walking along an isolated road when he heard something like a crying sound. He couldn't tell for sure what the sound was but it seemed to be coming from underneath a bridge. As he approached the bridge, the sound got louder and then he saw a pathetic sight. There, lying in the muddy river bed, was a puppy about two months old. It had a gash on its head and was covered with mud. Its front legs were swollen where they had been tightly bound with cords.

The young man was immediately moved with compassion and wanted to help the dog, but as he approached, the crying stopped and the dog snarled his lip and started to growl. But the young man did not give up. He sat down and started gently talking to the dog. It took a long time but eventually the dog stopped growling and the man was able to inch forward and eventually touch the dog and begin unwrapping the tightly bound cord. The young man carried the dog home, cared for its wounds, gave it food and water and a warm bed. Even with all of this, the dog continued to snarl and growl every time the young man approached. But the young man did not give up.

Weeks went by and the man continued caring for the puppy. Then one day, as the young man approached, the dog wagged its tail. Consistent love and kindness had won and a lifelong friendship of loyalty and trust began.

" Let us not become weary in doing good,
for at the proper time we shall reap
a harvest if we do not give up.
"

Saturday, April 9, 2011

Thank U For Being Part Of My Life


Dearest Sweetheart,

I wake up every morning with the thought of you in my head, wondering if I had dreamed you up the night before, but then I roll over and see your smiling face and I know that you're real; it's not a dream any more. I know I can piss you off and make you mad(with Sharifah Aini's sunglasses), but you still love me with everything you have. I was scared to love you at first, in fear that you would hurt me, but I dove right in and it's the best choice I've ever made. Now, the only fear I have is waking up and rolling over and finding out I had you only in a dream. If this is a dream world then, Baby, don't wake me up 'cause you're the one and only for me. I love you with everything I have and would give you the very clothes off my back. I love you with all my heart.

I have waited so long to be able to wake up every day to know you love me. I'm so thankful to God that you're here... that I never have to be apart from you. Writing this right now makes tears come to my eyes. I have such a strong love for you that I could cry all day long just because I love you. Sure, I tell you that I love you and how much, and I try to show you, but no matter what I do for the rest of our lives, you will never know just what I feel inside. How you make me feel is something that can only be felt, never explained. You take my breath away with some of the things you say. Just the way I feel when I lay with you, your arms wrapped around me, holding me, like I'm your baby. I sometimes am surprised of how much emotion comes out when I cry over you. My love for you is so strong that even I don't always realize how much I love you and cherish you.
You say I'm perfect and that you're the luckiest guy in the world, but you don't see what I see when I look at you. To me, you make me so, so lucky to even have you touch me with your hands. Or to even glance my way. I don't know what I did to deserve you in my life, but I thank God for letting me do it. You are so unbelievably perfect. And you are the perfect boyfriend, bestfriend, person, human being in the world... you, my baby, are the perfect one, not me.
You're my life and you have my whole heart. Wherever you go I'm always right there with you, because you have my heart and soul. I adore you and every part of you: your sweet smile, your strong hands, beautiful eyes, perfect, luscious lips, cute tummy, your sexy butt(even though i can only see but no touch) ... I'm getting chills just thinking about it! It's so cute and, well ... perfect! Just as is everything else on you and about you.
You, my sayunk, are the key to my heart, my other half, my soul mate and I will be so happy the day that I get to walk down the aisle and say, "I do ..." 'cause, Baby, I DO!! I love you, and don't you ever forget that....

Love always,
Girl

Friday, March 18, 2011

You Are The Piece Of The Puzzle I Need To Make My life Full And Complete And Thank You For Being My Best Friend

Friends Myspace Comments

You have always been such a wonderful protective and supportive person to me... you have been with me and been there for me ever since I met you. You were there for me when I was in love, in pain, in confusion. You've had more faith in me than I have ever had in myself... and I am endlessly grateful for that. You've provided me with an anchor of support, if not always sanity. With you, I feel that there are emotional things that will not change, even if our two separate lives do change on their own. I feel like there is something real and permanent about my love for you. It is like the sky when the mountains may crumble. It is like a background in front of which I will assume the various characters and personalities that this world directs me to.
There is nothing in this world that I would not do for you. I trust you with everything I have, and everything I am. I believe that you know this... and that you have known this for a long time. However it happens, I want you to know that I love you, and that I'll always be there for you above any other person, be it lover, girlfriend, dream or depression. I count myself among the luckiest souls in the universe for meeting you. Thank you for being here for me.

I never had no one
I could count on
I’ve been let down so many times
I was tired of hurtin’
So tired of searchin’
’til you walked into my life
It was a feelin’
I’d never known
And for the first time
I didn’t feel alone

You’re more than a lover
There could never be another
To make me feel the way you do
Oh we just get closer
I fall in love all over
Everytime I look at you
I don’t know where I’d be
Without you here with me
Life with you makes perfect sense
You’re my best friend
You’re my best friend, oh yeah

You stand by me
And you believe in me
Like nobody ever has
When my world goes crazy
You’re right there to save me
You make me see how much I have
And I still tremble
When we touch
And oh the look in your eyes
When we make love