Hold On....Be Strong

I have been assigned by my boss to handle this project and its not just a project but a huge project and it's million Ringgit project. I am all excited at the same time only God knows how much I am scared and worried. Not because of anything but I am given million ringgit worth project to handle but I am not given a team to work with. Yup no team. Just me, myself and I.
And I really do not want to screw up with this project coz if I do, I am putting my neck on a chopping board. I am doing the best that I can but at the same time I am also having other project coming in. All the projects are urgent and i mean it's super urgent. I have agreements to do, proposals to do, and also meeting clients at the same time and all I can do is to give my best shot and the balance of my worries, I guess I have to wrapped it in a pelican pouch and pass it back to Allah and let Allah handles them. I am only His humble servant.
I don't have the team to be working in a team. As I said before in my previous journal, 90% of the staff have been assigned to handle another project and that leaves me all alone to handle this big project. To make things more interesting Allah is at the same time, testing me with a teaspoon of salt and pepper. That is by giving me a situation to handle which is big.... my son is sick again and so is my daughter. On top of this my ex husband wants me to handles this all by myself.
When I look at my good friends like Zue, Azlan, Razak..how lucky they are. Happily married and loving couple. Maybe I will not get it here but who knows akhirat things are better for me. heheheh because at that time no one can hurt me anymore. Here, they keep on hurting me like life is gonna be forever for them la kan..lol.
Back to the point, basically at this moment I am worried as hell but at the same time I am feeling ok because I know this moment will pass somehow. The moment I get PO for this project I am gonna go for a break. Well I have this song that I really want to dedicate to myself:
Are you swimming up stream
in oceans of blue
Do you feel like your sinking?
Are you sick of the rain after all you've been through?
Well I know what you're thinking
When you can't take it
You can make it
Sometime soon I know you'll see

'cause when you're in your darkest hour
And all of the light just fades away
and When you're like a single flower whose colours have turned to shades of gray
Well hang on and be strong

We're taking each step one day at a time
You can't loose your spirit
Let live and let live forget and forgive
It's all how you see it
And just remember keep it together
Don't you know you're never alone

'cause when you're in your darkest hour
And all of the light just fades away
When you're like a single flower whose colours have turned to shades of gray
Well hang on (whoa) and be strong

No you're not defeated
And soon you'll be smiling once again
Then you won't have to feel it
Let it go with the wind
Time passes us by
And know that you're allowed to cry

'cause when you're in your darkest hour
And all of the light just fades away
When you're like a single flower whose colours have turned to shades of gray
Well hang on (whoa) and be strong
(hang on hang on) Be strong
Hold on and be strong