Al Fatihah to Tuan Alwee

Al Fatihah
Alwee Ab Ghani
9 July 1957 - 6 June 2010

Innalillahiwainnailaihi raji'un... 3hours ago, my closest client who was not only a client but a very close friend and also like a brother to me, Supt. Alwee AB Ghani from Bukit Aman passed away after 2 and half months of being critically ill. Just last week when he asked Tuan Syed of IPK Selangor to take him for Chicken Rice at Shah Alam. Despite being sick, he asked Tuan Syed of my condition and Tuan Syed had informed him about my operation and my stubbornness. Right after my operation, Tuan Syed told him I had crab and prawn on the same day of the operation and just after my discharged from the hospital, i drove my car to Sunway. Tuan Alwee despite his condition at that time, was pretty much angry and told Tuan Syed to come with me to his house.

Above pictures were taken 21 days before Arwah passed away

5 years Ive known Tuan Alwee, he was a strict man when it comes to work and duty. Towards the last 6 months of his life, he gave me more advice and always talked about his family and had spent more time with his family. He promised me that he would attend my wedding but I guess we can only plan but everything is up to the Almighty.





So this journal is specially dedicated to my client/friend/big brother SUPT ALWEE AB GHANI who was and will always be dear to me. Will miss you Tuan. Al- Fatihah.

Tuan Alwee has always been proud of his parents. Always advised me to always take good care of my dad.

Celebrating his 26th Wedding Anniversary .

Quote from Tuan Alwee that came with this picture : [Seronoks tengok gamba2 vacation wit fam + ank2buah di Bandung 9-12 Jan 2010. kepada semua amek ar kesempatan masa yg ade nih vacation wit fam + adk bradek + ank2buah. U wont regret !!!!].

Alwee A. Ghani
Thanx isteri ku, along, alang, wanie + Qilah and Nuar, nana & ayien for a wonderful time together2. Tis is jez a beginning. meh arrr mklong + fam, mklang + fam, pkder + fam, pkteh + fam & Ucu + fam..next trip ehhh. really looking 4wrd !!!!
January 15 at 12:36am
Alwee A. Ghani
masa nih dia org smo x nyempat2 nk turun nk pijak bumi Bdg. Ktorg relax jerr...well U know me cool as cucumber kan kan kan
January 15 at 2:27pm ·
Despite his busy schedule, he never neglected his family

Quote and comment came with this picture:
Alwee A. Ghani
jez love de views...
December 2, 2009 at 11:34am
Elina Ariffin:
yeap..remember sadiq and me snap pic membelakang this view...heheheeh
December 2, 2009 at 12:37pm
Alwee A. Ghani:
huhuhu amek gmba x pe jgn terjun udah lerr..level 29 tuh ateh bukit lg..x sempat nk mngucaps ooooo..kan Mya
December 2, 2009 at 10:17pm ·

Quote from Tuan Alwee that came with this picture: [Kesihatan yg baik makes all things possible, kekayaan / kemewahan makes all things work & LOVE makes all things BEAUTIFUL. Smoga U all have them all.. Good luck & al de best in 2010..

Was taken 2 and half months back after biopsy

Discharged after 10days of being hospitalised at PPUM. Quote that came with this picture from Tuan Alwee :[bosa hati dan terharu semua adk bradeks dr JB & Cheras, Ampg + Klang dtg lawat aku yg sakeet nih. Ko org sbonanyer ubat paling mujarabs. TQ so much semoga kita dpt jumpa lagiiiii..insyallah]

Was taken on 15th May 2010 (21 days before passed away)

Was taken on 16th May 2010 (20 days before passed away)

The Message Allah has Sent To Me

The past one week, I dunno why the name of this particular Surah in the Quran kept playing in my mind. Everyday and every minute. Then from every hour, it went to every minute and then every seconds. So i decided to take my translation Quran and go thru the meaning of each ayat in that surah. I realised then why it suddenly came to my mind. Allah was sending a message to me. My whole body trembled when I read the meaning. Masha Allah..its beautiful. Jazakh-Allah Khair. I hope whoever reads this entry will watch both of these videos till the end. Before I post this video, I kept watching them again and again. And each time I watched them, I cried and have this tingling running through my spine. No wonder Allah kept playing the name of this Surah in my mind until I opened the translation and looked into it. Subhanallah..

Have Faith In Allah And Everything will be Fine

I just have the urge to write this topic because I have failed as a good muslimah and also help people that i care most to see how Allah works in our lives and what he has commanded us to do. Hopefully and maybe they might bump into my journal and in directly I can send the message across. I am still struggling to better myself to be a better muslimah which I still need to work really hard on it because I am NO angel myself, in fact I am a devil myself trying to change to be a good Muslimah but it's really tough and as long as I believe Allah is merciful and Most Forgiving, I know He will help me. I can only pray for Allah to shine some lights in our hearts just I see some acquaintances that are married flirt with different men at one time and some have sex with different men when they have husbands and as their acquaintance I wish I can tell them ITS WRONG but somehow I just couldn't open my mouth because like I said I am no Angel myself though I don't sleep around but in my life I have committed other sins. And i also see how some friends got into anxiety because they have unnecessary worries on their mind. They worried about money, worried about going to be poor someday and other things related to "dunia" but never about the preparation for the Hereafter. The iman became low when they are tested and when they can't get enough with what Allah has bestowed upon them.

Our heart pounds before a presentation or a big exam. We get butterflies before a blind date. We worry and fret over family problems and constantly worry about money and future which is still a mystery.And the worries and fears are preventing us from living our life the way we'd like to, we may be suffering from an anxiety disorder. It’s normal to worry and feel tense or scared when under pressure or facing a stressful situation. Anxiety is the body’s natural response to danger, an automatic alarm that goes off when we feel threatened.

But then, most of us get so distressed with the things related to "dunia"(worldly stuffs). But why? Why the worldly stuff so important to most people? Is this something between Hell and Heaven? People forgot to ask themselves these things.."
1. if i chase the worldly stuffs, would that gain me rewards or would i gain Allah's love and pleasure? Why didn't I have full trust and conviction in Allah? Ive done my best and the rest is up to Allah. Why do I get so distresses about something of this dunia?
2. Did I ever act this way regarding my prayer?
3. Did I act this way to the fact that I didn't wear a proper Hijab?
4. Did I act this way because I didn't honor my parents enough?
5. Did I ever get this distressed because I don't have enough knowledge about Islam?
I was reading this book called Ideal Muslimah and the very first statement of the book was :
“ The Believing Woman is Alert
One of the most prominent distinguishing features of the Muslim woman is her deep faith in Allah (SWT), and her sincere conviction that whatever happens in this universe, and whatever fate befalls human beings, only happens through the will and decree of Allah (SWT); whatever befalls a person could not have been avoided, and whatever does not happen to a person could not have been made to happen. A person has no choice in this life but to strive towards the right path and to do good deeds - acts of worship and other acts - by whatever means one can, putting all his trust in Allah (SWT), submitting to His will, and believing that he is always in need of Allah's (SWT) help and support.”
Why would our iman get so low and often people get so distressed and impatient for the things in this dunia. Why don't us all have the patience as Allah has commanded us to have? Remember if we do something for the pleasure of Allah, Allah will take care of us. That's for sure. People always got themselves into trouble and difficult situations because of dunia. We should strive our best in worshiping Allah according to Quran and the authentic Sunnah. It's really sad that some of my friends told me that, I believe in Quran only and NOT the hadith. God have mercy on them. The thing is...believing in Quran and NOT practicing it, I guess it defeats the purpose too.
Day by day, i try to better myself and hope one day if Allah permits, I will get married and when that happen, I hope my husband then will be my IMAM in all my 5 times prayer. I really wish for that moment. “ Islam should not revolve around your life, your life should revolve around Islam. “

A Dua For You & Me

You never know when Allah(SWT) is going to bless you. Good things happen when u least expect them to.

Oh Allah, I thank You for this day. I thank You for my being able to see and to hear this morning. I'm blessed because You are forgiving, Allah and understanding, Allah. You have done so much for me and You keep on blessing me. Forgive me this day for everything I have done, said or thought that was not pleasing to You. I ask now for Your
forgiveness. Please keep me safe from all danger and harm. Help me to start this day with a new attitude and plenty of gratitude. Let me make the best of each and every day to clear my mind so that I can hear from You. Please broaden my mind that I can accept all things. Let me not whine and whimper over things I have no control over. And It's the best response when I'm pushed beyond my limits. Continue to use me to do what You will, Oh Allah Continue to bless me that I may be a blessing to others. Keep me strong that I may help the weak... Keep me uplifted that I may have words of encouragement for others. I make duah for those that are lost and can't find their way. I make duah for those that are misjudged and misunderstood. I make duah for those who don't know You . I make duah for those who read this journal of mine. I make duah for those that don't believe. But I thank You that I believe. I believe that Allah (Swt) changes people and Allah (Swt) changes things. I make duah for all my sisters and brothers. For each and every family member in their households. I make duah for peace, love and joy in their homes that they are out of debt and all their needs are met.. make duah that every eye that reads this knows there is no problem, circumstance, or situation greater than our Rabb. Every battle is in Your hands for You to fight. I make duah that these words be received into the hearts of every eye that sees it, Inshallah (Ameen)

Somewhere I have never traveled
Gladly beyond any experience
Your eyes have their silence
And your most frail gesture of things
Which enclose me
But which I cannot touch
Because they are too near.�

The first time I loved forever
Was when you whispered my name
And I knew at once you loved me
For the me of who I am

The first time I loved forever
I cast all else aside
And I bid my heart to follow
Be there no more need to hide

And if wishes and dreams
Are merely for children
And if love's a tale for fools
I'll live the dream with you

Poem:
�oh, if your words be to close me
I, my life will shut, very beautifully
Suddenly, as when the heart of this flower
Imagines the snow carefully, everywhere
descending�.

For all my life and forever
There's a truth I will always know
When my world divides and shatters
Your love is where I'll go

Poem:
�I do not know what it is about you that closes
and opens. Only something in me understands
the voice of your eyes is deeper than all roses.
Nobody, not even the rain has such small hands.�