She is back?

Today as I was driving to KL to send the brownies Nora ordered, received a text messages. But i didn't bother to read instantly as i have been receiving a lot of Eidul Mubarak wishes. When I reached Ampang Point, remembered about the text message I received. Flip my Sony Ericsson phone, read the message.
Well it wasn't an Eidul wish but a message I received from someone who was at one time close to me and Nini. She told me that she will not go back to Sarawak this Eidul Fitri and she is all aline here. I don't know why but I felt sorry for her. So I told her to come over and celebrate Eidul Fitri with me and Nini and my family.
As much we were disappointed with her, I just feel sorry for her. And I bet she must be feeling lonely right now. And later after i have done with the cooking, I received more messages from her. This time she gave me her new contact number and her new house address.
Probably tomorrow I'd just drop by at her place with some of the Rendang and Ketupat. Let's see if Nini wants to come along. I guess its ok to give her a second chance though I am so afraid to have anymore close friends after what had happened at the office during Ramadhan. I am happy right now being on my own. Everyone is equal and no one is extra special as BFF anymore except Nini, Linda, Shaharudin(Qelana) & Mike.
Well will see how tomorrow is..and i will update

Salam Eidul Fitri

Today is the last day at work before Eidul Fitri festival. Many have gone back to their hometown last Wednesday. I am glad that i managed to apologies to those I have sinned in this office. People that I nicknamed or gossiped in my previous chapter of life.
In this new chapter, I decided to " zerorise " my mistakes with them and no more having cliques. Yesterday, the moment I gave people that I have sinned a hug and an apology, the moment I told them I have made many wrongs and mistake towards them, I felt the warmth in my chest and suddenly a big weight was lifted off my shoulder. I might not have best friends in the office anymore but one thing i know, I have gained many friends and after this my life in the office will be different. No more having cliques, everyone is equally treated.
Everyday is a transformation, a new sensation, alteration, modification, an incarnation,celebration. Everyday is a new equation, revelation, information, anticipation ON TO ANOTHER DESTINATION.
God grant me the serenity
To accept the things I cannot change
The courage to change the things I can
And the wisdom to know the difference

If we want to find happiness, lets stop thinking about gratitude or ingratitude and give for the inner joy of giving

A new Chapter In My Life

Today I have decided to close a chapter in my life and start a new one with a greener pasture. It's true that when you lost something or someone in your life, God will replace it with a better things.
In my previous chapter of my life, I have lost people that were close to me. The first day I was sad and what made it even sadder were the words they threw on my face. But then the second day, I realised something. I woke up and still hearing the birds chirping and the sun was shining so brightly and beautifully, I told myself "Hey what is that to be sad about?". I went to the office feeling so much better than the old Chapter of my life. Because now, I have more friends and more time for myself. And guess what? For the first time in 4 years, my ex husband decided to let the children spend their Eidul Mubarak with me. Not forgetting, I received RM1,000.00 Ang Pow for the Eidul Mubarak from a client yesterday. At first I was wondering why was the packet thick and kinda weighty until I opened and took a peep. To my surprised there was RM 1,000.00. So I decided to give my best friend some and some to 2 of my colleagues who have helped me alot without having to remind me that they have helped me. And the balance shall go to my dad and to buy some meat for the festival of Eidul Mubarak.
I guess like the song i sing everyday to my self and to my 2 angels say:
Smile, though your heart is aching
Smile, even though it's breaking
When there are clouds in the sky
You'll get by...
If you smile
With your fear and sorrow Smile and maybe tomorrow You'll find that life is still worthwhile if you'll just... Light up your face with gladness Hide every trace of sadness Although a tear may be ever so near That's the time you must keep on trying Smile, what's the use of crying
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you'll just...
Smile, though your heart is aching
Smile, even though it's breaking
When there are clouds in the sky
You'll get by...
If you smile
Through your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you'll just Smile...
That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you'll just Smile

Thank you Allah for everything and for always protecting me in Your very own way... mmmuuuaaaahhhhsssss...Love you always Oh Allah