Wednesday, June 16, 2010

This Journal Is Dedicated to all the Innocent Souls including Baby Tes


The first email I received this morning was from my sis. The moment I saw the pictures in this email, i can feel like a knife ripping my heart and my tears just kept rolling down my cheeks. Even an animal knows how to care it's babies. Sometimes when I see this kind of pictures I always wonder what was running in their sick mind. I have a daughter and a son..everyday I would pray to Allah to protect them and as many other kids from such sick bastards.

Even to those who dumped babies in dumpsters, i mean why wait till the babies are born? Why not abort it at an early stage. I mean not that i agree with abortion but rather than wait for the innocent lives are born and just simply dump the babies like its some kind of rubbish. For God sake!
Here is the picture that comes with the email i received this morning. This was Varsha who went missing on UPSR day and was killed brutally.






Am I having Gamophobia?


What I have is called GAMOPHOBIA? What is "gamophobia?". Mr Wiki definition is The abnormal possibility which is extremely possible of the fear of, wait, oh yeah, the abnormal possibility which is extremely possible of the fear of the fear of the fear of the fear of the fear of the fear of marriage.
This morning one of my cousin buzzed me on FB and we chatted for awhile. Then he told me that he feels like going to an Island with the wife without his kids. I asked if its their 2nd honeymoon and he said hopefully because "the love meter is running on a low fuel".
Then today my "God brother" visited me after office hour and he decided to join me for my "Iftar" (Breaking fast). In the car I asked him about the girl in his FB and he said there's nothing going on between him and that girl. During dinner, suddenly he said "Sis, i am actually afraid of getting married." I asked him why and he said he hasn't found a girl that when he's face to face with her, he feels this kinda electricity.
Well frankly speaking I have the same problem.... I am having "GAMOPHOBIA".And I get kinda pressured when people asked me "So when is the D day?"...My answer is always "Aaarrr...emmm..arrr..."then start scratching my head. I kept pushing month to month until I found the time when this fear of marriage disappears.
I guess because during the period of dating and a few years of marriage, you think you are in real love with your partner. You think you are made for each other, and you are the perfect couple in the world. After a few years have gone by, you may have children by then you become more responsible and sensible. Nevertheless, something is missing...yes the spark of love has disappeared.
The world today indicate that there are more people getting divorced, getting cheated on and breaking ups than they are happy couples that are in love and stay in love. Well I hope I can get over my "Gamophobia" someday..maybe someday..
Well I know one guy who actually knows the meaning of true love and really shows it..and that's my ex boyfriend. He just got married and the way he treats his wife...all i can say is that "She is one hell of a lucky woman". Though he used to be my boyfriend and now we are Xs..I amtruly happy for him and his wife. And I know he is one guy who will love and treat his wife like a princess and light of his life. I remember the time he and I were a couple...well that's history now...





Tuesday, June 15, 2010

Im So Proud Of My Brother, Norman@Ted

Today my one of my Facebook friend text me and said "Ellie..your brother today is in Star paper!" So I asked her which brother coz I have 5..so she said the Chef. So I click Star Online and there he is...so to my brother Ted (thats what we family call him), Im so proud of you, have been and always be proud of you. I'm sure our late mom will be smiling knowing how much you have changed and succeed in life.

Perfectionist chef

CHEF Norman Zaid wants everything to be perfect in his kitchen. He wants his food to be good as it looks and to have a good effect on his customers.

It's not just what's in it that counts, but what's not. According to this 35-year-old chef, he knows exactly what’s inside anything that he puts in his mouth.

If he has it his way, vegetables touched by pesticides, rice processed with bleaches or anything with MSG will not find their way into his kitchen.

What does have a place in his kitchen at the Kitchen Creatures restaurant, in Centrepoint, Bandar Utama, is distinct Western and Italian cooking which is deeply flavourful.

The restaurant is packed daily during lunch, mostly with regulars who come to taste Norman’s special Spaghetti Aglio-Olio with shrimp and mushroom, a specially-flavoured soup, pastas and pizzas. Most of his customers are stunned by the textures, tastes and freshness of the food.

Norman, who was trained under renowned chef Ricky Palanti, says practice makes perfect and this is what he expects his team of six to do in the kitchen.

"I get very disappointed when I find out my staff have not followed the exact ingredients or substitute it with something else or worst of all, omit it totally. Somehow, I can tell what's missing or has been used in excess," said Norman who plans to open his own restaurant before the end of the year.

As a young boy, Norman enjoyed messing around in the kitchen, helping his late mother, Mariam Ali prepare meals for their big family. Norman has seven siblings and he is the second last.

"My late mum used to cook three to four dishes a day in a jiffy and she can complete her task within one hour. Looking back, I'm still amazed at how fast she could do all the chores in such a short time," said Norman who admits having no chemistry working in an office environment.

After all those years helping his mother, the image of him in the kitchen stuck in his head and he went ahead to pursue his dream to become a chef.

Norman has worked in every part of the kitchen. He remembers fondly how he ended up working in Delifrance during the early days in 1995. From there, he moved on to work in the pastry department at the Hilton KL for the next two years.

Somehow, Norman knew it was going to be a difficult journey to become a trained chef but he never once gave up.

"All along, the desire of wanting to have the whole kitchen to myself was so great. I finally got my chance after working my way up," said Norman who blames his profession for still being single.

Despite being deprived of a love life, Norman said labouring in the kitchen for long hours under the tutelage of master Chef Ricky Palanti was more fulfilling somehow.

This ex-chef of Carcosa Seri Negara and Shangri-La followed Palanti almost everywhere for the next 10 years until Palanti opened his own restaurant, the Mango Tree.

In fact, Norman owes it to Palanti for all his training and shaping him to be what he is today.

"They say if you can survive working with the regimented and difficult Palanti, you can survive anywhere. I agree full-heartedly. It is not easy working with Palanti. He trained me the hard way and after many years under him, the reward now shows," said Norman who has mastered the Western and Italian cuisine.

According to Norman, he has always aspired to be a chef. Nothing that his parents or friends said changed his mind.

"Wanting to be a chef was my ultimate goal in life. I did not go for any formal education but my passion guided me to make the best choice in this career," said the local-born who still appreciates the good, old-fashioned cooking of his father.

"You may not have the formal training but with great passion, you can achieve your dream. It was a long process to reach where I am now but I never regretted it," said Norman who has 13 years of experience.

Norman admits that the competition to be the best in this line is rather stiff.

"Every chef has his or her own speciality. It's fine with me. The cake is big enough for everyone to share it," said Norman.

Here's Norman's Spaghetti Aglio-Olio with Shrimp and Mushroom.

Sunday, June 13, 2010

Redha is a Virtue

Today is my first day without my car. I have decided to let go of my car which has been serving me for the past 5 years without giving me a single problem. Papa was really sad when I told him about me having to let go the car. He told me with tears in his eyes, "Allah has tested you so much Girl, with your cancer and things that happen in your life". I smiled at papa and told him " That's because Allah is so Merciful. He doesn't want me to go home to Him with still full of sins papa, and I have accepted all His test with an open heart.
Allah has revealed in His Quran, that He will test the Muslims in various ways until the end of their lives. But there is one important secret the believers need to know : If someone encounters difficulty or something hard for them to deal with, that means Allah has also given them strength to overcome the matters and succeed the test.
I also told papa " If we dedicate and submit our lives to Allah, we must have trust in Allah and calm in facing the difficulty. I have never regretted my life and the thing I go through in life. Not a single bit of my life. Despite being a sexual abused child when I was 7-12, now my bone cancer and today having to finally let go my car, I still feel so bless because the PEACE which Allah has put in my heart, not a single soul can take it away and no amount of money can buy it.
My eldest brother who has been so supportive and has always been there for me gave me these 2 ayat yesterday. Its from Surah Al- Hadiid (IRON) ayat 22-23 which means:
22. No calamity befalls on the earth or in yourself but is inscribed in the Book of Decrees(Lahuz Mafuz) before We bring it into existence. Verily, that is easy for Allah. ( Tidak ada sesuatu kesusahan atau bala bencana yang ditimpakan di bumi dan tidak juga yang menimpa diri kamu, melainkan telah sedia ada dalam Kitab (Lahuz Mafuz)sebelum Kami menjadikannya, sesungguhnya mengadakan yang demikian adalah mudah bagi Allah.

23. In order for you not to be sad over matters that you fail to get, nor rejoice because of that of which has been given to you. And Allah likes not prideful boasters. ( Kamu diberitahu tentang itu - supaya kamu tidak bersedih hati akan apa yang telah luput daripada kamu, dan tidak pula bergembira (secara sombong dan bangga) dengan apa yang diberikan kepada kamu. Dan ingatlah, Allah tidak suka kepada tiap-tiap orang yang sombong takbur, lagi membanggakan diri)

This is a very beautiful Surah (in fact all the surah in the Quran are so beautiful and touchy..it will make one shed tears when read the translation) which is call Surah Al Hadiid (IRON). This particular surah is teaching the Muslims to be strong in their IMAN and to submit fully to Allah: