My Everynight Bedtime Song

This will be my bedtime song. Today when I listened to it for the first time with my Philip headphone(imagine the sound with Philip Headphone...)with my eyes closed..Damn..how i missed the momens..the first 2 lines itself have made me sobbed like a lil baby...hugging my knees...

I will love you forever and i have never loved anyone as much as i love you...
Like the song said "You Can"...nothing can take us away except Allah and only death will separate us..Till death do us part...at the moment Allah is testing our love and just like Nini said To have True Love isn't easy.

Before we go to sleep tonight
We'll say our prayers
I'll hold you tight
And kiss away the fears you hold inside you

So many years have passed us by
I cherish the moments by your side
A love like ours will only grow much stronger
I wanna to tell you

That forever more I'll be the one to love you, to love you
When you need me I'll be there to make you smile
And forever more I'll be the one you come to oh honey
I'll be the one to love you when the morning comes

Through all the tears we left behind
The joy we shared, your hand in my mine
I can't resist ooo touching you not even while you're sleeping
And when you wake I promise you
We'll celebrate our dreams come true
A love like ours will only grown much stronger

I wanna to tell you
That forever more I'll be the one to love you, to love you
When you need me I'll be there to make you smile
And forever more I'll be the one you come to oh baby
I'll be the one to love you when the morning comes

Let me tell you
There will never be another cold and lonely winter night
'Cause we're family
And baby our love will last forever

So I'll say to you
That forever more, I'll be the one to love you darling
When you need me I'll be there to make you smile
And forever more I'll be the one you come to oh I will baby
And that forever more
I'll be the one to love you when the morning comes

I'll be the one to love you... forever more

A Very Special Dedication :(

Only God knows how i feel when i decided to post this entry...why does it hurt sooooo bad? What my heart wants to say is said in this song...



People hand in hand
Future in the plan
Promises we make
Sometimes fade away
Like footprints in the sand

Love's a game of chance
I've come to understand
What my greatest fear is
Someday you'll disappear
Like footprints in the sand

But life was meant to live
And love was meant to give
No-one ever said
That you could depend
On whispers to the wind

Love's a game of chance
I've come to understand
What my greatest fear is
Someday you'll disappear
Like footprints in the sand

So I will build my castle on the sea
And pray that you'll come back to me
And there I'll wait faithfully
For your return, your return

Love's a game of chance
I've grown to understand
Hope will keep you near
She will reappear
Like footprints in the sand
In the sand, in the sand

My Client's Email Notification in My Blackberry Is Like Music To My Ears..

I used to hate the sound of my email notification when i received them at my Blackberry...I always feel like its a nuisance to me and like...eeergggh why oh why are there so many emails especially junk mails...but lately...the sound of the emails notification on my Blackberry seems to be the nicest music to my ears. And each time there is notification, i would jumped with excitement...with my pixie look and sometimes like a lil girl jumping in front of a candy jar begging please please when her mommy decided to buy those colorful candies.

This is how i look like when receiving my client's email lately....

If it comes from my Yahoo..it has a different tone and when it comes from my Gmail it will be another sound..Both make me jump with full of excitement...event though most of the time its junk that fills up my inbox...but my heart will still ask..."aaaahhhh my client..yay! must be my client..."

To my darling Rufina

Today I received a message at my Facebook Inbox from my Malaysia Airlines(MH) batch girl...I miss all of them and thanks to facebook i get to find almost half of them on FB..I just have to copy and paste the message she sent and paste here so I wont lose it.(its really touchy and sweet of her)...A sweet message from a sweet person..Love you Rufina Radius...and thank you...we sure had a great time back in 1990(with our basic instructor Mr Madana whom we call Mr Banana)...giler wooo...hehehehe. Here is what she wrote to me today...

I'm speechless at first to know abt your condition now.. And U know, I miss U so much.... I remember the trip to Genting... I remember when just the two of us singing Sheila Majid songs in your car... and to me, U're the best (woman) driver that I've ever met...( hey I've never seen a woman who drives so fast with just one hand holding the steering and one hand scratching her back !!! hahaa..but U did that..!! Fantastic. Elina, whatever happen...please please do not give up. I'm holding my tears......O dear ! I pray for U to get well soon. Take care. Love U fren.

God willing I will visit you at Kota Kinabalu one of this day...shall we sing the song "lagenda" by Sheila Majid again? LOL

I have been harassed by PSYCHOTIC WOMAN from Sungai Petani....

The past 1 week i have been harassed by this psychotic woman from Sungai Petani..and i mean she is really really psycho. I refused to answer any of her SMS and her phone calls...So today i have no choice but to make a police report at Bukit Aman just after my meeting with Bukit Aman's top guns. I have given them her photo too. They have opened a file on her and has assured me that any harm comes to me even if it's not done by her..she will be the first prime suspect.
Psycho- that one word says it all. It means completely nuts. Psycho woman will do things that are completely crazy..... lacking of rational thought.....actions with no thought about the consequences. Sometimes they are violent. Sometimes they throw things. Sometimes they scream and yell. Sometimes they do outrages things like vandalized your car, embarrass o r harass you at work. They might even threaten you or your girlfriend . YOU GET THE IDEA. THIS PARTICULAR SUNGAI PETANI WOMAN HAS ALL THE ABOVE. These women are just plain crazy and there is nothing you can do to change them. Your best strategy after you know that a woman is psycho is to cut your losses immediately...hopefully before she gets too attached to you la...as that might minimize potential bad behavior that might be directed toward you.
Sounds scary, eh? The funny part is that most psycho women do not appear to be psycho right away. Often times it takes many months before their true colors start to show. You best bet as a midlife bachelor is to watch for early signs of psychosis, and then make your decisions.

To Sheila, to myself & all the Cancer Patient out There

I dedicate this song to my dearest friend Sheila who just received a bad new today on her birthday that her cancer has spread to her joints, her spine and brain...and also dedicate to myself also battling against my cancer and all the cancer patient out there..BE STRONG and we will survive..