KNow the Real Me...

When I first heard this song...it's like Mariah was singing about me..All my life people that know me thought they knew me inside and outside but the fact is, i have always been misjudged based on what they on the surface.

You look at me and see the girl
Who lives inside the golden world
But don't believe
That's all there is to see
You'll never know the real me

She smiles through a thousand tears
And harbors adolescent fears
She dreams of all
That she can never be
She wades in insecurity
And hides herself inside of me

Don't say she takes it all for granted
I'm well aware of all I have
Don't think that I am disenchanted
Please understand

It seems as though I've always been
Somebody outside looking in
Well here I am for all of them to bleed
But they can't take my heart from me
And they can't bring me to my knees
They'll never know the real me

I LOVE YOU

Does absence make the heart grow fonder? Maybe so...!!I am writing this I LOVE YOU LETTER while Nz is away from me for a week. In it I share with my sweetheart the reason I love him.

My Beloved Nz,
I love you. Just writing that puts a smile on my face. YOu put a smile on my face.

I love you because of your sweetness, your kindness, your tenderness and your thoughtfulness.

I love you because you are MY DEAR FRIEND and LOVING COMPANION. You smile at my silly jokes, my "muka merajuk" and my youthful spirit.

I love you because I have a longing to be close to you and you long to be close to me. I love snuggling and cuddling with you on the swing at my porch(which we call "OUR SPECIAL PLACE") every night till early in the morning. I love to be near you. I love holding your hand on a walk during the day and holding your hands across the table at "Kayu" restaurant at night.
I love you because you listen to me as I share the small triumphs or struggles of the day.

I love you because in moments of friction between us, you hear me out. Even when you don't agree with me, you listen with a longing to understand me.I love you because you respect me. You enjoy my attentiveness and appreciate my efforts to romance you. You appreciate my generosity to yourself and my generosity towards others.

I love you, sayunk!

Ellie

With Your Love I ALREADY AM RICH beyond my dreams

One day Ellie was wandering in the forest thinking and missing her beloved Nz. Satan was looking down upon the earth looking for a soul to torment. He saw Ellie wandering alone in the forest and he flew down to meet her.

Satan said: "Why Ellie, I have been looking for you".

A startled Ellie asked: "What do you want?"

Satan said: "What do I want?Ellie, please, I have a wonderful offer for YOU!"

Ellie replied : "Thanks. But I am not interested".

Satan said: "Why Ellie, you haven't what i have to offer. I could make you very wealthy ".

Ellie said: "You don't say".

Satan said: "Yes, I will make you quite wealthy. I will make you rich beyond your dreams".

Ellie replied: "Excuse me if I sound suspicious, but there wouldn't happen to be a catch?".

Satan said: "Ellie, I am offering you so much!! All you have to do is give up on Nz's love for you and I will make you rich beyond your dreams".

Ellie smiled.

Satan saw the smile and said : See Ellie, I knew you will like my offer".

Ellie's smile broaden and she replied: You don't understand. Satan, I am not interested in your offer. With Nz's love, I ALREADY AM rich beyond my dreams".

Letter to My Soul Mate From Minah Ayat Power

My Dearest Sweetheart

Time is inconsequential as the words are always present in my soul, so the transposition from heart to paper is swift. The emotions come from the deepest core of my being...the place where no one but you can walk. There is a gazebo, replete with trellised adornments upon which Topaz roses grow. A weeping-willow, ancient and wise with silent offerings of love and life, whispers softly its secrets to you as the wafting breeze strokes the strings of its mellow harp.

I was lost upon a sea of changes, winds and waves, searching...hoping in silent and profound prayer that somehow my redemption would appear. You came into my life and I realized that it was not something new that I had hoped for, but something as old as time itself, created at the beginning of all things...the absent part of my soul...the essence of my soul...You.

The day the kind fates smiled upon me and their soft, caressing winds blew my battered self upon the warm shores of your heart, I was born anew...whole once again. A someone, not just a broken shard. You have restored me. My heart, like the harp can sing again...can taste the flavors of emotion and touch intimately the tenderness within.

You, My Love...are the life within me. The breath of Spring and rejuvenation. the strength that carries me through the wilderness on my way home to you.

I Love You more deeply than I can express.

Your loving wife,

Ellie

My Best Companion During My Hospital Stay

My special thanks to you sweetheart for taking care of me during my stay at the hospital the last 3 days..sending me to the 1st floor for my physio in the morning and in the evening..finishing my M&M while waiting for me to finish my physio and for sneaking me out of the hospital for a couple of hours just to see Wan and Sarah...UNFORTUNATELY gonna miss u tomorrow(wish u don't have to go for your trip), with u sanitizing ur hand at every patient's door while wheeling me around on the wheel chair...LOL. All these while i had to go for my hospital trip alone but now trip to the hospital will not be as bad as before..

I remember the first day to the hospital, when u told me "things are gonna be alright" while holding my hand tight, u had tears in your eyes ( I know you were sad because i am sick). But you kept giving me the assurance that no matter what happen you are always gonna be by my side. Never in my previous relationship had any of them treated me the way u do. With them it's always about them and never about me. But with you, you always made me feel important.

I wish tomorrow you don't have to go for your trip as the doctor is gonna give me bad bad injection through my spine(sob sob sob) but I know you have work to do at the next continent but I am so looking forward to sneak out of the hospital tomorrow for a couple of hours just to send you to the airport. Ngeee!!!.

I am so gonna miss you tomorrow. Each time I miss you, a star falls down from the sky. So, if you looked up at the sky and found it dark with no stars, it is all your fault. You made me miss you too much!

God is my Strength and My Refuge.

Religion may be the cause of war.RELIGION, not god!Man is the cause of war.If man would take the time to listen to each other rather then dive head first into the ice cold water, if they would just analyze the situation many men, women and children would still be here today.So maybe Religion is the cause of war, but only the misudersatnding of religon cause war.NOT GOD!!! Smile. Just smile. Smile at those who don’t have Him in their hearts. Go ahead. Smile. And while you are at it, try to tell them about Him. And keep on smiling when they push you away and tell you that He isn’t real and that there is no proof that He exists. And then when you just can’t smile any wider, laugh. Laugh till it hurts then finally ask them: “Do you have any proof that He doesn’t?” And you dont have to say another word even if they do. Cause you won. YOU WON. Cause having proof that God is real totally ruins the point in believing with your heart, soul, and mind. You dont need some fancy factual book to say Hes there, or some smarty scientist to say it. You got Him. How much more proof do you need?

NZ, When You Said You Love Me...

I've had the experience of being in relationships before however, this is the first time I've been truly happy. For the first time in my relationship, I am allowed to be myself and not someone whom the guy wants me to be and with him I can do whatever that makes me happy. When someone broke my heart, i decided to pierce my lips and he didn't say NO but accompany me instead and when I told him, i wanted to go for a vacation with my good friends, he gave me his full support and told me "You deserved this vacation baby" instead of like others.."No"..or "why" or "Go with me"... So this poem is about this special man in my life NZ. He's my inspiration for writing this poem. He's the thought that makes me smile and he's the rhythm that makes my heart beat. I wanted to share a piece of my heart on how beautiful the feeling is of "when love begins" and being able to share that love with that right person...
I always knew that love would come find me someday
but never did I know that it would be you who was headed my way
you caught me off guard and took me by surprise
but you simply captivated me, the same way you do when I look into your eyes
It's true that every good and perfect gift is from above
you were presented to me as a beautifully packaged gift full of humor, talent, intelligence, beauty and love
"it isn't finding the perfect person but learning to see an imperfect person perfectly"
we all have our flaws but when I view you through my eyes, perfection is all I see
From when you laugh to when you're upset, I still love the little things you do
especially hearing you laugh and seeing your nose wrinkle the same way mine does too
coming into this relationship has been hard at times but we've made it through
I know as long as we're on this journey together, there's nothing that we can't do.
Sometimes I wonder if what we have is too good to be true
too scared to get my heart broken and scared of the thought of losing you
but in the end, I trust in the author and perfecter of what I believe
because what we ask for in Him, we in return shall receive
"Where your treasure is, your heart will be also" is how the saying goes
I may not know what tomorrow may bring, for God is the only one who knows
the one thing I do know is that you are my one and only
a treasure in my heart that I want to devote my whole life to completely
I know I don't need to prove my feelings to know they're true because what I've known in my past, doesn't come close to the experience I've shared with you I've had the experience of being in relationships before
however, this is the first time I've been truly happy... I couldn't ask for anything more it's an honor to know that I am yours, as you are mine and I trust God that He'll bring us together in His beautiful time
For now, I'll be waiting patiently for that day when we'll be together
that precious moment in time when I'll say, "it's you that I want to be with forever"
God made everything beautiful, precious and new
just as beautiful and precious as the day will be, when I look into your eyes and say, "I Love You"