Finally....the day finally came

A month ago I told him I have to end the relationship. It hurt both of us soo much with the decision I made.He was and is still hurt and so am I but the decision has to be made. 2 days ago he came to KL, a day before he left for Acheh. Damn I miss him so much.
Yesterday after my appointment at Putrajaya, I picked him at his hotel and sent him to the airport. Just as i was about to reached the KLIA toll, my tears suddenly drooled down my cheek. He kept telling me to be patient and he kept wiping my tears with his finger.
God, I never questioned things that happened in my life, but this time I just need an answer for this test. Just want to know what are the things behind this test. He is the first guy I fell in love with. Never have i felt this way with other guys I dated before. Why did You put this feeling in my heart when You know we can never be together. Just wish I have this answer to my question.
I pretend to be happy with my decision but actually it hurt so bad. Please take this pain away. I can't help myself but missing him so much. Please take away this feeling of love and the feeling that hurt me so much. I dedicate this whole list of song to him. He will be my memory that will remain in me forever.
I've decided not to have anymore relationship in my life. There are times i feel like I am cursed when it comes to relationship. He is the first guy that allows me to be ME...ELINA ARIFFIN. Who accepts me just the way I am. Who loves me for just ME. Not wanting me to change a single bit.
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Ketulusanmu mengalir sebening kasihmu
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Kau begitu berarti
Sungguh sangat berarti
Kesempurnaan cinta
Kau beri
Aku menyayangimu
Dalam senyum dan tangisku
Dan aku mencintaimu
Dalam hidup dan matiku
Kau begitu berarti
Sungguh sangat berarti
Kesempurnaan cinta
Kau beri
Aku menyayangimu
Dalam senyum dan tangisku
Dan aku mencintaimu
Dalam hidup dan matiku
Aku menyayangimu
Dalam senyum dan tangisku
Dan aku mencintaimu
Dalam hidup dan matiku
Aku menyayangimu
Dalam senyum dan tangisku
Dan aku mencintaimu
Dalam hidup dan matiku
Dalam hidup dan matiku

my indo songs