SHEILA & I during our visit to Kulim in March'10
Yesterday my friend Sheila who is also battling with cancer called me. She called to tell me the outcome of her check up. From her voice i could tell that it was gonna be a good news. Indeed it was. I was so happy for her...we both have different type of cancer. She has 2nd stage breast cancer and I have first stage Chondrosarcoma. (a type of bone cancer which attacks the ligament of the long limp). But I don't know why when I was happy for Sheila, I was also feeling sad thinking that mine is still on going when mine is only first stage.
The same night I called Qel..told him the good news about Sheila's condition. Out of sudden I burst out crying sobbing on my knee. I know Qel has never heard me sobbing like that..he kept saying "Sayaaaannnggg continue talking to me please..talk to me. I'm gonna be here for you" I just couldn't talk anymore. I couldn't thank Qel enough for being so patient with my condition. He talked to me till 2am.
Cancer, the dreaded "C" word. It has become such an epidemic in our society that people are loath to even mention its name. Cancer is a disease that can affect many different parts of the body. Some of these diseases are more serious than others. It is not only the disease that is painful but also the many way of treating it. Radiation treatments may kill the cancer but are also dangerous for the body. Chemotherapy comes with many side affects such as hair loss and severe nausea. The many faces of this disease challenge an individual to show their fighting spirit and will to live.
The doctor told me I have a "good cancer".
I never knew there was a better type of cancer to have.
They said it's treatable so its a better cancer to have.
Why do I have to have any type of cancer?
It caused as much pain.
It made myself and loved ones worry just as much.
I might loss my hair like other people with cancer
I still have to take medications everyday to keep myself alive.
I go to bed every night praying I'll wake up the next day
My dad still cry and worry that he will outlive his daughter.
I still have to see doctors all the time.
I look tired all the time
I don't understand how this is a "good cancer"
I've been beating my cancer almost 2 years now
Like other cancers,it can come back when it wants to.
I still have to get cancer scans & tension rise out of worry
I have to stop my medication and put in an isolation
Like other people with cancer, I always end up thinking I might not survive my cancer
Most associate the word cancer with death
How is this "good"
I'm not gonna give up though
I refuse to let my family bury me
I want to be that crazy bubbly girl that i used to be
I refused to stop dating
I refuse to stop planning for my future
I want to get married to my boyfriend
Yes Ive become stronger from all this
However, i don't see how it can still be a "good" cancer
The same night I called Qel..told him the good news about Sheila's condition. Out of sudden I burst out crying sobbing on my knee. I know Qel has never heard me sobbing like that..he kept saying "Sayaaaannnggg continue talking to me please..talk to me. I'm gonna be here for you" I just couldn't talk anymore. I couldn't thank Qel enough for being so patient with my condition. He talked to me till 2am.
Cancer, the dreaded "C" word. It has become such an epidemic in our society that people are loath to even mention its name. Cancer is a disease that can affect many different parts of the body. Some of these diseases are more serious than others. It is not only the disease that is painful but also the many way of treating it. Radiation treatments may kill the cancer but are also dangerous for the body. Chemotherapy comes with many side affects such as hair loss and severe nausea. The many faces of this disease challenge an individual to show their fighting spirit and will to live.
The doctor told me I have a "good cancer".
I never knew there was a better type of cancer to have.
They said it's treatable so its a better cancer to have.
Why do I have to have any type of cancer?
It caused as much pain.
It made myself and loved ones worry just as much.
I might loss my hair like other people with cancer
I still have to take medications everyday to keep myself alive.
I go to bed every night praying I'll wake up the next day
My dad still cry and worry that he will outlive his daughter.
I still have to see doctors all the time.
I look tired all the time
I don't understand how this is a "good cancer"
I've been beating my cancer almost 2 years now
Like other cancers,it can come back when it wants to.
I still have to get cancer scans & tension rise out of worry
I have to stop my medication and put in an isolation
Like other people with cancer, I always end up thinking I might not survive my cancer
Most associate the word cancer with death
How is this "good"
I'm not gonna give up though
I refuse to let my family bury me
I want to be that crazy bubbly girl that i used to be
I refused to stop dating
I refuse to stop planning for my future
I want to get married to my boyfriend
Yes Ive become stronger from all this
However, i don't see how it can still be a "good" cancer
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